For those of you that have not been following my story. I met my
boyfriend when he had been in Primerica for 7 years. Partly my
pressuring him, and partly money caused him to quit.
Anyway I got laid off and after months of searching and 16 job
interviews I was getting desperate so became a subsitute teacher and
I have a contract job that will end in January (that is also when
the paycheck arrives). I am having trouble paying bills and I get
annoyed easily. So my boyfriend who has a good paying job decided
to "spend more time" with Primerica again. Most of the money he
makes from his real job goes to paying off the debts he got while in
Primerica. So now he is going back to Primerica to "help me out".
I guess part of MLM behavior is co-dependence. I am blaming myself
for not finding a job, and "forcing" him into Primerica. In this
way it is like a drug addiction. Instead of blaming Primerica for
his troubles he is going back to Primerica and I am the one at
fault. I told him I did not want him in Primerica again and he
said "too bad the arrangements have already been made".
I delayed the break-up lecture a couple of times when I thought he
would leave Primerica behind forever. Now I know it will never
happen. The brainwashing is complete. The ironic thing is he went
to a shrink. He worked out other problems but not this one. Thier
he was with help right in front of him and he did not bother to use
it.
I guess I have learned quite a few things from this relationship. I
thought I wanted a guy that would never cheat, treats me like gold,
and is encouraging in all my endevors. I guess I should add no
addictive behaviors to the list. I know I will never meet a perfect
guy, but this behavior is never acceptable.
I guess this whole experience was a test of resolve. I did not join
an MLM and I need a job. Even in my situation I know better then to
be wooed in by these kinds of offers. I am praying that one of the
5 jobs I have interviewed for in the last 3 weeks will come
through. I know in my heart one of them will. At that point I will
break thes chains and be completely free.
By the way in my spare time I created a webpage. I thought I might
need some new job sills in case things did not work out. Here is
the web address.
http://www.helenlov
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